Humility

It has been said that you are humble until you know it. Well I then can say, I am the most humble person in the world! Humility is not something that comes easily. Yet it is something that is needed almost as much as air. I watch the world around me and what I see makes me sad inside. To have seen to carnal fury of a gun causes me to loose the entertainment of many movies. To have been addicted to the lust of the flesh has turned me off to many comedy romances. Yet now, being married, I long for more than these shallow pools of momentary thrills and pleasures. I long to be counted, to make a difference, to fall down on my dying breath saying, "What a ride!" Yet this world seems to be decaying and decomposing under our feet and what's more, the church seems to be asleep at best, if not condoning this push on to death. I will be honest, though I want to be able to say I stand up for righteousness, there is nothing right in me, except the grace of God. I delight in evil enough to deserve Hell three times over. So what is the answer? What is step one?
II Chr.7:14 says, "If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves and will pray and will seek My face, and will turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from Heaven and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land." The main thrust of Christianity is out of my hands. I am saved by grace through faith, not of my works, so that I can't boast. It is not of me but one thing that God did put into my realm of responsibility is humility. He wants me to humble myself and turn from my wickedness, pray and seek His face. This would be easy if it wasn't so hard! If we weren't so good at being bad then we wouldn't have anything to boast about.
Though I am far from perfecting this nor can I take any credit from this but the other day I started to pray and I found myself shielding my eyes. Not so much because I was afraid God was going to show up but because I was asking Him to show up. It was as if the reality of my worthiness to be in His presence came to life. I am worthy to be in His presence because of my unworthiness to be in His presence! That makes no sense which excites me most because God is His infinite amazingness chose to make me, an unworthy nothing, worthy through His Son who being worthy became unworthy on the cross! Therefore I shielded my eyes not because I was afraid He would show up and fry me but because I simply was overcome with the reality that God is so great and I am so not even worth mentioning but God mentions me all the time! When I come into His presence I can't lift my head but He raises up my eyes to the mountain, from where my help comes! Humility is to hard to come by but it is what is going to save this country and this world! Humble ourselves, turn from our wicked ways, seek His face, PRAY! Our World can be healed but it comes when we stop trying to be so good at being bad and we realize how bad we are at being good!